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Sunday, June 16, 2013

Weigh-in: June 16, 2013



After reaching my all-time highest weight last Sunday, I am trying to do everything I can to never top that weight and move as far in the other direction as I can go.   I started cutting back this week, but will admit/confess  I didn’t do as much as I had hoped.   A few of my poor choices included take-out spaghetti, pizza and chicken teriyaki, along with a couple of bags of peanut m&m’s.  Even with these unhealthier foods being consumed, I was able to lose six pounds this week.

Previous weight:  391 lbs

Current weight:   385 lbs

Even though I did eat less in general this week, I think most of the weight loss is due to losing the weight I had gained during the previous two weeks.  Doesn’t really matter, I am just happy the scale is moving in the right direction now.  I don’t have a good track record with consistent weight loss.  I will lose, gain, lose, etc.  However, I plan on eating better this week and making it two losses in a row. 

My husband and I had a discussion this morning about our weight and how we’ve been eating.  We agreed that the first thing we need to work on is not eating food prepared outside the home.  We talked about the reasons we tend to eat out and solutions for trying to cut back.  It will take work on both our parts, but I am hoping we succeed this time. 

Something happened yesterday that I have been dreading.  It wasn’t horrible, just uncomfortable.  My husband and I were babysitting my four year old nephew.  I was wearing a short sleeved shirt.  I usually, only wear a ¾ sleeve or longer shirts.  The shirt sleeve I was wearing came to right above my elbows when my arms were down.  I was sitting on a couch while my nephew was standing a few feet in front of me talking way too fast.  I folded my arms over my chest.  My nephew then asked “why are your arms hanging down like that?”  It wasn’t exactly the “why are you so big” question that I have been dreading, but very close.  I’m obese and my arms are huge, bigger than Hulk Hogan’s, only mine are not full of muscles.  I asked him what he meant, but I knew.  He came over and touched my fat triceps that hang down, and said “these, why are your arms so big?”  I wasn’t sure how to answer and desperately wished my sister had been home.  She would have known what to say.  I don’t think you should lie to children, but I didn’t want to explain that I was fat and then have him running around telling other people they were fat like his Aunt.   I figured I would deal with it another time, so I told him I had big muscles and changed the subject.  Yes, I lied.  Later he told me that his dad also had big muscles.  Great.  I will talk with my sister tonight and see how she feels about it.  I feel so bad that he has an aunt that has so much fat on her body and is unable to play with him the way he or she would like.  He is one of the many reasons why I desperately want to lose weight.

Hope you had a nice weekend and Father’s Day.  Here’s to a great week!

28 comments:

  1. Congrats on the loss!

    Don't know what to say about your nephew, except that hopefully in time all of that will go away.

    So why spaghetti, pizza, and 2 bags of peanut M&M's? Need to analyze the whys of those...

    (yeah, I'm holding you accountable.)

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    1. Thanks Gwen. The reason for the take-out is probably because I was being lazy and not wanting to cook or eat vegetables. It's an excuse and a habit that I am trying to break. The candy was in the house. I'll get better.

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  2. Oh, my heart goes out to you with having to deal with that comment. I had that happen all the time when I taught the 4 and 5 year old children's choir at our church. Sometimes the kids would say, "But Miss Diane, why are you so big?" I often floundered and did not know what to say.

    On a more positive note - huge congratulations on the loss this week. Keep it up and make it two in a row, then three, then four. Then you will really be on your way!

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    1. My sister had a discussion with my nephew this weekend about how everyone is different, some big, some small, etc. His comment didn't hurt my feelings, because I know he didn't intend to, he was simply asking of my size. I'm sure he will make more comments but hopefully we can teach him to be respectful.

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  3. I can totally relate to this issue. Many years ago I was walking down the street with my son. Keep in mind also that I was very pre-mature grey and hadn't dyed my hair. Well while walking we past one of my sons classmate, whom I didn't know and his classmate asked where was he going with his grandma. I was devastated. Then my son later turned to me and asked why do I have to be so big and look so old. Children only state the truth even of how much it may hurt. They don't mean any harm, they just see it as it is. You feel embarrassed. so hold a bit onto that feeling because it just may help you to stay on this journey to become more healthier. If you really want this you will do it. You are the only one who can and is in full contol. It takes time but each baby step counts and gets you closer to your goal.

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    1. Yes, after talking with my husband, I think small change is best for now. I will strive to not eat the food types that I don't want to, but immediately I will concentrate on a few things, including drastically reducing or eliminating wheat.

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  4. Sometimes kids are just curious. It might never come up in a conversation again with that child. Congrats on the scale going south:)

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    1. Thanks Marc. Yes, it was totally out of curiosity.

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  5. I am so incredibly proud of you on your weight loss! I know what you mean about feeling unsure of whether you can continue but you will. I think we are so sure that we will continue to repeat what we did in the past. I am one of those that lost and then gained back more (and then some) too. :) I think your answer to your nephew was perfect. I have been in that situation many times of being caught off guard when asked about why I am so big at various times in my life. He is four and doesn't need any further info than that. Do not beat yourself up over it. :)

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    1. I'll believe it when I see it Linda. Of course, if I want to see the weight loss, I will need to do the work this week. Already flubbed a little yesterday, but today will be on track.

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  6. I am so proud of you. I'm proud of you for your incredible weight loss this week, but there's another reason I am so proud. My husbands family is not very sensitive. They don't really understand the concept of "hurt feelings." I've had to endure many jokes at my expense, and that behavior is now being taught to my nieces. They make jokes about fat people they see, and don't have much regard for others feelings. My oldest niece once brought me to tears because of the comments she made about weight limits and small seats while we were in line for an amusement park ride. I am so proud of you and your family for working hard to make sure your nephew is respectful and aware of other peoples feelings. You are doing a fantastic job. Keep it up!

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    1. My sister is an awesome person and a fantastic mom. I have doubt that my nephew will be the most respectful, mannered kid around.

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  7. Congrats on your weightless!! I'm happy to see that you have a supportive husband. What about the two of you going for walks? Sorry to heat about your nephew :(. But at least you know it was him being curious and not hurtful. Have a great week!

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    1. Yes, I would like to start walking with my husband. Having some knee problems of late, but will get out there soon.

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  8. Sorry you had to go through that with your nephew. Even if it was through the innocence of a child - I know it still hurt. Congrats on the weight loss though! Six pounds is great!

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    1. Thanks Darcy. Actually, my nephew's comment didn't hurt so much as it was uncomfortable. I know he meant no harm, but I couldn't think fast enough on my feet what to say. My sister has since had a conversation with him and now I know more of what to say the next time, if there is one. Still, I don't want to be this size. For me and him, I will work on it.

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  9. You are off to a great start... keep it "rolling" lol

    Have a wonderful week.

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  10. Congrats on the loss! :) As for what to say, I would have just said "Oh, it's just me!" and then moved on. Kids are always very curious, and would have asked if you had a tattoo or a scar or a birthmark there too. Which you already know, and already said, I'm just repeating it. You got this!

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  11. Congrats on the scale pointing down! Kids are so innocent, but can be so hurtful without knowing. Keep at it...you are moving in the right direction, and we're here to cheer you on on the way! Have a great Monday.

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  12. Hang in there. There are plenty of us who are together in this endeavor. I'm a new follower.

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  13. Way to go on the weight loss! Planning ahead for me is the key to not eating out. Keep it up! You've got this!!

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  14. Awesome loss this week. Let's let the numbers going down and playing with your nephew be the motivation to continue!

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  15. @Rhonda - thanks for the comment and encouragement.

    @Kyra - Yes, I like that answer. Thanks.

    @Roz - Thank you for the support.

    @ E. Jane - Thanks for stopping in. That's what I like about blogging, there are others in the boat with me. Some have more experience from which I can learn a thing or two, or three, etc.

    @Tina - I think I need to plan ahead too. I have a bad track record with making last minute food choices.

    @Jenn - Thanks! As he grows, I want to be able to play catch, shoot hoops and run with him.

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  16. First off, congrats and shedding some pounds, way to go! Secondly I can totally relate to kids asking about why my body looks like it does. My kids have asked me why my tummy sticks out, or why I have scars (stretch marks). I remember when my oldest son was about 3 and we were watching tv together. There was a commercial about some weight loss product and they showed a before and after picture and my son said, mommy you look just like her, and pointed to the obese woman. Of course it was innocent, but it cut me to the core. Keep working out getting the processed foods out and the whole foods in and eventually your body will start to crave them. Small changes = big results.

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  17. That is an awesome loss Roxy!! You should be proud that you made conscious decisions this week even if you weren't 100%. And for the record - no one is 100%! I have had pizza, beer, wine - but within moderation so I think that's helped the scale move for me. Oh, and that damn Insanity (that I actually look forward to doing!).

    Here's to both of us having a great week!

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  18. Yeah--another aunt! Four is such a great age. It sounds like he is a wonderful reason to get healthy. I have my great niece(5)and great nephew (7) coming over next weekend and am looking forward to playing with them.

    Congrats on the 6 pound loss! That is incredible.

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  19. Great week one!! Heres to week two!!

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  20. Congrats on the loss! Children are so innocent with their comments, it's us with with the problem, I think.

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