Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Lousy eating this week

This week has been one poor food choice after the other.  I’ve ate fast food every day this week and I feel gross.  Why am I doing this?  I’m not exactly sure but laziness has to figure in.  My house is stocked full of healthy choices, but yet I choose to eat crap instead.   My weight is up since Sunday and I may not be able to recover before the next weigh day.  I’m not giving up though.  This behavior needs to stop.

I wish I knew why I continued to make these choices.  I have plenty of reasons to lose weight, but apparently none of them are motivating me like they should.  I should be scared out of my wit that I could have a heart attack or stroke any day.  I have had Type II Diabetes and high blood pressure for over ten years and now high cholesterol (though controlled with medication) and problems with my thyroid.  Those are the health related reasons, but I have plenty of other reasons too.  Why are they not enough?  Why do I choose eating poorly over being healthy?  These are rhetorical questions.  This is just sooooo frustrating and shameful.  But, this is my problem to fix.  I will.  I just don’t know when.

All I can do is to keep trying and that I will.  Tomorrow is the start of a new month.  I want to stop the madness and start eating like a person that cares enough to take control of her destiny.  Not sure how I will do it, but I want to turnover a new leaf in August and get so freaking serious about weight loss.  Tomorrow I will start.  I may start posting my daily eats for a while to see if that helps me stay on the straight and narrow.  It may be boring for you, but possibly helpful for me. I need to change.

This was kind of a downer post but just how I am feeling tonight.  My gut is full of McDonalds and I feel blah.  Tomorrow will be a better day. 

Hope you’re doing better.  Let’s finish the week strong.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Weigh-in: July 28, 2013

Today is my weigh-in day.   I’m so excited and I just can hide it.  Unlike the Pointer Sisters, I won’t let this excitement cause me to lose control.  Today will not be a free-for-all eating fest, like previous weigh-in days have been.  My breakfast was large and it included hash-browns, but I was HUNGRY.  The rest of the day will be sensible meals that align with my plan.  And now for the digits:

Previous Weight:  380 lbs
Current Weight:    375 lbs  (5 lb loss this week!)

Last week, I had more good days than bad as far as my eating goes.  I ate out three times and snacked on some ice-cream bars.  I’m most proud of my lunches this week.  In the past, I have been too lazy to pack a lunch for the office and would end up eating fried chicken strips and tater tots or something worse.  The last couple of weeks, I have packed a bunch of raw veggies and leftover protein from the previous night’s dinner.  I hope to continue with this plan this week.

That’s all I have for today as I need to take care of some chores and errands.  Hope you all have a great Sunday and find some time to rest and relax before the work week begins.

Friday, July 26, 2013

Making better choices this week

After eating way too much last Sunday following my weigh- in, I knew that I had to play catch up to re-lose a pound or two gained that day before I could work on losing more weight this week.  I seem to do that a lot.  It’s not fun.  Since Sunday, I have been making better choices.  Mostly this means I have not been giving in to temptations or cravings this week.  We did go out for Mexican dinner Wednesday night, but I ate fewer chips and less food during the meal than I normally would and ate well the rest of the day.  I’ve done better with my eating the rest of the days and feel strong going into this weekend. 

My husband has been grilling a lot this week (protein and veggies) and following more of the recipes in the diabetic friendly cookbook/magazine that he purchased a couple of weeks ago.  Our dinner plates have been containing ½ non-starchy vegetables, ¼ proteins and ¼ starches (sweet potato fries).  We’ve also been having egg scrambles for breakfast that have been loaded with bell peppers, mushrooms, green onions and spinach.  My lunches have been loaded with raw veggies including bell peppers, carrots and cucumbers.  I’ve cut back on the taffy (we won’t buy more) and having fewer or smaller snacks.  While I have reduced the taffy and ice-cream bar intake, I will continue to work on eliminating these items from my weekly consumption.  I would like them to be more of a rare treat.

Knowing that I have a tendency to throw out the rules on weigh-in day and have a food free-for-all, I am going in to this weekend with my eyes wide open and hopefully my mouth closed.  Tonight I will plan out our meals for the next couple of days and get my husband’s buy-in.  I know we can still enjoy ourselves without indulging in all the usual high-fat and starchy foods our Sundays have come to be.

Other than trying to stay on track with my food choices, I don’t have any plans this weekend.  Maybe I will head to the movies; I haven’t been to a theater in quite some time.  What are your plans?  Hope you have a nice and relaxing weekend.

Monday, July 22, 2013

Weigh-in: July 21, 2013

Yesterday I was in relax-mode trying to soak up every minute of the weekend and therefore didn’t post my weigh-in results.  The news is decent; I lost three pounds last week.

Previous weight:  383 lbs
Current weight:   380 lbs

Unfortunately, I stuffed my face yesterday.  I am consistently making poor choices on weigh-in day.  This needs to stop.   How stupid is it to lose weight during the week only to gobble down a ton of food on weigh-in day and undo progress?   Yet, I continue this behavior.  Sadly, the food wasn’t great and now I start the week with a huge surplus of calories my body doesn’t need.   This unwanted behavior is moving to the top of my priority list (if one actually existed).  I’ll spend a day or too thinking this over and then report my plan of attack.  It may be something along the line of tracking my calories and not going over on weigh-in day or something similar.

Besides my slip-up yesterday, I feel this is going to be a good week as far as my eating goes.  I have a meal plan for at least the first four days of this week.  I plan to avoid evening snacks and instead have warm tea.  I will drink plenty of water, more than usual.  Not sure why, I just have a feeling that I will make better choices this week (going forward). 

It’s Monday and there’s nothing I can do about it, so I’ll just make the best of it :)  Hope you have a great week.

Friday, July 19, 2013

The usual hiccup

We had a meal plan and were doing great.  Then came Thursday, our last day in the office (we work from home Friday and Monday) after a busy week and the commute conversation turned to dinner.  We stopped for Mexican food.  My arm seemed to be robotic, constantly going from the chip basket, to the salsa to my mouth and back to the basket.   

Stepped on the scale this morning and saw the damage from last night.  It was the usual hiccup and now I am playing catch-up the last two days before weigh-in.  My weight loss journey continues to resemble a roller coaster’s up, down, up down.   When you get right down to it, it’s all about the choices I make.  If I want to see more downs than ups, I need to have fewer hiccups.  If I don’t mind the slower progress I can choose to continue eating the same way. 

No big plan for this weekend and that is fine with me, for now.  My sister will be camping so I may head up there for a few hours to visit and play with my nephew.  If do go up there, I will have to be careful with my eating and let her know that I don’t want to be offered any treats.  Even though the knee is still bothering me, I want to do some walking this weekend.  It may be for fifteen minutes or less, but I want to start moving.  My ankles have been in a swollen state for a couple of months now which has limited my shoe options.  My blood needs to be circulated yo!

It’s Friday!  Hope you have a great weekend.