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Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Lousy eating this week



This week has been one poor food choice after the other.  I’ve ate fast food every day this week and I feel gross.  Why am I doing this?  I’m not exactly sure but laziness has to figure in.  My house is stocked full of healthy choices, but yet I choose to eat crap instead.   My weight is up since Sunday and I may not be able to recover before the next weigh day.  I’m not giving up though.  This behavior needs to stop.

I wish I knew why I continued to make these choices.  I have plenty of reasons to lose weight, but apparently none of them are motivating me like they should.  I should be scared out of my wit that I could have a heart attack or stroke any day.  I have had Type II Diabetes and high blood pressure for over ten years and now high cholesterol (though controlled with medication) and problems with my thyroid.  Those are the health related reasons, but I have plenty of other reasons too.  Why are they not enough?  Why do I choose eating poorly over being healthy?  These are rhetorical questions.  This is just sooooo frustrating and shameful.  But, this is my problem to fix.  I will.  I just don’t know when.

All I can do is to keep trying and that I will.  Tomorrow is the start of a new month.  I want to stop the madness and start eating like a person that cares enough to take control of her destiny.  Not sure how I will do it, but I want to turnover a new leaf in August and get so freaking serious about weight loss.  Tomorrow I will start.  I may start posting my daily eats for a while to see if that helps me stay on the straight and narrow.  It may be boring for you, but possibly helpful for me. I need to change.

This was kind of a downer post but just how I am feeling tonight.  My gut is full of McDonalds and I feel blah.  Tomorrow will be a better day. 

Hope you’re doing better.  Let’s finish the week strong.

22 comments:

  1. Eating junk/fast food one day makes it hard to resist (the chemicals are designed to keep you coming back). It will be hard and uncomfortable to break the cycle... But you deserve it.

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    1. Thanks Jeanette. I need to learn to accept a little uneasiness as I try to break the old habits.

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  2. What are some of your most favorite healthy things to eat? I use those as my "treats" to keep me on track. I find eating some of my favorite things regularly helps me bunches know what is yummy and easy to grab.

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    1. I like this idea and will put some thought into what healthy treats I might like to keep around.

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  3. Have you tried reading any books on the subject? Just curious. I hope you find an answer soon.

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    1. Thanks Gwen. Knowing what to do and doing it are two different things. I'm not discounting the idea of reading more to help me, but so far it has only helped to fill the brain with information but not actually cause me to change habits for any length of time. Still....

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  4. Hi Roly! You know, it takes a LOT of trial-and-error to change eating habits. I'm finally at a good weight after working on this since January 2007. Yes, over 6 years of 4 steps forward and 3 steps back. Honestly, I think public food journaling is an awesome idea for you. I've food journaled for over 300 days in a row--and it's a weight loss miracle for me. Hopefully, it is so good for you too. :D

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    1. Thanks Marion. I'm glad that you have had such great success. I always find useful tips from your blog and should start putting them to use. I might try the public food journaling. I think putting it all out there, the good, the bad and the ugly might cause me to want to do better so as not to be quite as embarrassed. We'll see.

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  5. Just a thought. Maybe instead of spending money on eating out, you put it aside and after the end of the week you buy yourself a new top, or get your nails done, or something that makes you feel good about you.

    I've battled with eating since I was 8 years old. It's still a daily battle for me. I don't always win the fight, but each time you do, it makes you just a little bit stronger.

    Every single person I know who has beaten obesity has said the same thing.....this is a journey with ups and downs. It's not how many times you fall down that make a difference, it's how many times you get back up and fight. You are worth fighting for. I hope you get some rest tonight and wake up tomorrow feeling refreshed. Keep fighting, Roly, keep fighting.♥

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    1. Thank you Erica, yes I will keep fighting. I will keep looking for ways to improve.

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  6. It takes a lot to change your eating habits. What about working on your portions to start with, and slowly working on changing your foods? There are programs (LoseIt, My Fitness Pal, Sparkpeople, etc) where you can track your calories and lose weight regardless of what type of food you are eating right now. Yes, could you make a better choice than McDonald's? Sure, but if it's going to happen, why not stay on track in another way for the time being?

    This is a new thing you're trying to work through, and it's big. It's about changing a lifestyle that has been ingrained for a very long time. There's also the completely normal reaction of feeling like you are deprived or cut off from what is "normal" (I still struggle with it), but at this point in your journey, it would do you a lot of good to count the calories and work on the portion sizes for your goal, teaching you what's a meal and what's too much, seeing how you can eat more naturally just by making different choices, etc. You don't have to be perfect right now. You just have to hit your target range for calories to make significant progress.

    This is a long term thing. Counting calories makes me crazy, but the truth is that for the years I did it, it taught me a lot about serving sizes and what was worth the cost and what wasn't. At this point in your journey, that is a necessary learning tool - FAR more important that never having McDonald's again. Maybe feeling less "I can't have that" and more "let me check and see what I can have here/right now" is what you need to get the ball rolling?

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    1. Thanks Kyra. I think that is a good idea and I might start tracking my calories and focus on staying within a range. I can continue to work to eat healthier foods at the same time.

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  7. As for me I did and still doing what Kyra stated. I allow myself a certain amount of calories per day. Which in turn opened my eyes in how many calories are in fast food. Now I usually turn to good low calorie healthy foods.
    Like everyone said this is a journey. You will have your ups and downs.
    Just keep at it and it will work out.

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    1. Thanks Anna, I would like to see more downs for awhile.

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  8. Oh Roly - wish I had a magic wand to make that switch that gets you away from fast food.

    But its been your habit for so long, habits are hard to break. I am in your corner and I know you can make the switch!

    Hugs - Biz (for some reason its saying I am anonymous!)

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    1. Biz, I wish you had that wand too or better yet I wish you were my sister-in-law and cooked my meals for me. :)

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  9. Sorry to hear you've had a bad week. I think a lot of us have been there and it's tough to break the cycle. Sometimes you fall back on old habits. Identifying the "Why" is key. Is it just for convenience that you are eating fast-food or is there an emotion or a stress behind it?

    Also like Jeanette mentioned, fast-food is full of chemicals that encourage addiction. Even though I haven't had a burger from McDonald's for over 5 years, I still have the memory of exactly what it tastes like... which is pretty scary.

    Hope things get better :)

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    1. Nikki, I think most of it is convenience. I need to push myself more as far as cooking. I need to build the habit of cooking because it definitely hasn't been my routine for years. Either my husband cooks or we eat out. Thanks for the encouragement.

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  10. Make tomorrow and each day a better day.
    Switch on to healthy choices and switch off those that aren't.

    All the best Jan

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  11. I know when my mind isn't ready it is hard to stick to goals. Take some time and write down what you are thinking. Maybe it will help you to see what is knocking you off track. Track your food. See when your eating and what your eating. Write down your moods at the time. Even if you don't have time or the energy to prepare meals, try to select the best choices when you eat out.

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  12. I think that you're making progress even though it may not feel like it. We've all been where you are and it takes years to get eating under control, and we'll always struggle with it. The main thing for you now is to change your mindset and then everything else will fall into place. This takes a long time, too, but I can tell that you are well on your way. You have to want it for yourself, too, which I know you do. Hang tough - you and your DH can do it together.

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