This week has been one poor food choice after the other. I’ve ate fast food every day this week and I feel gross. Why am I doing this? I’m not exactly sure but laziness has to figure in. My house is stocked full of healthy choices, but yet I choose to eat crap instead. My weight is up since Sunday and I may not be able to recover before the next weigh day. I’m not giving up though. This behavior needs to stop.
I wish I knew why I continued to make these choices. I have plenty of reasons to lose weight, but apparently none of them are motivating me like they should. I should be scared out of my wit that I could have a heart attack or stroke any day. I have had Type II Diabetes and high blood pressure for over ten years and now high cholesterol (though controlled with medication) and problems with my thyroid. Those are the health related reasons, but I have plenty of other reasons too. Why are they not enough? Why do I choose eating poorly over being healthy? These are rhetorical questions. This is just sooooo frustrating and shameful. But, this is my problem to fix. I will. I just don’t know when.
All I can do is to keep trying and that I will. Tomorrow is the start of a new month. I want to stop the madness and start eating like a person that cares enough to take control of her destiny. Not sure how I will do it, but I want to turnover a new leaf in August and get so freaking serious about weight loss. Tomorrow I will start. I may start posting my daily eats for a while to see if that helps me stay on the straight and narrow. It may be boring for you, but possibly helpful for me. I need to change.
This was kind of a downer post but just how I am feeling tonight. My gut is full of McDonalds and I feel blah. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Hope you’re doing better. Let’s finish the week strong.