This week has been one poor food choice after the
other. I’ve ate fast food every day this
week and I feel gross. Why am I doing
this? I’m not exactly sure but laziness
has to figure in. My house is stocked
full of healthy choices, but yet I choose to eat crap instead. My
weight is up since Sunday and I may not be able to recover before the next
weigh day. I’m not giving up
though. This behavior needs to stop.
I wish I knew why I continued to make these choices. I have plenty of reasons to lose weight, but
apparently none of them are motivating me like they should. I should be scared out of my wit that I could
have a heart attack or stroke any day. I
have had Type II Diabetes and high blood pressure for over ten years and now
high cholesterol (though controlled with medication) and problems with my
thyroid. Those are the health related
reasons, but I have plenty of other reasons too. Why are they not enough? Why do I choose eating poorly over being
healthy? These are rhetorical questions. This is just sooooo frustrating and
shameful. But, this is my problem to
fix. I will. I just don’t know when.
All I can do is to keep trying and that I will. Tomorrow is the start of a new month. I want to stop the madness and start eating
like a person that cares enough to take control of her destiny. Not sure how I will do it, but I want to
turnover a new leaf in August and get so freaking serious about weight
loss. Tomorrow I will start. I may start posting my daily eats for a while
to see if that helps me stay on the straight and narrow. It may be boring for you, but possibly helpful
for me. I need to change.
This was kind of a downer post but just how I am feeling
tonight. My gut is full of McDonalds and
I feel blah. Tomorrow will be a better
day.
Hope you’re doing better.
Let’s finish the week strong.