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Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Three Weeks?



Three weeks of 2014 have already passed.  Really? How?  I find it incredible how fast time seems to fly.  I had hoped and still do that I make serious progress with weight loss in 2014, but after three weeks my weight loss total is still the big goose egg zero.  A couple of days ago, the number would have been +3 lbs as I saw a new high on the scale.  Panic set in.  This morning I was back down to 391, but feel bloated and heavy. Trying to stand for even the shortest amount of time or walking short distances seem like a major chore and oh so painful.  Gosh, I am tired of living life this way. 

No more wasting time.  I can’t afford to waste another year being this unhealthy.  Losing weight will require stepping out of my comfort zone, changing my routine, breaking habits, learning new habits and well, you get the picture…I need change in general.  In the past I have failed because I didn’t have a plan in place and had a hard time making changes until I knew the plan.  While I still don’t have any real significant plan in place, I am not going to wait to start making changes or eating less.  Meaning, I am going to get out of my way.  I guess I am saying that my immediate go-forward plan is to make more of an effort to just eat less.  Of course, I would like to choose healthier foods and options and I hope to start gravitating towards those options and away from what I have been doing over time, but in the meantime, I plan to just eat less in general.  I plan to stop or seriously cut back my snacking on sugary or high-carb items and also start eating smaller (normal) portions in general.  It’s not much, but it’s something, somewhere to start anyways. 

My husband hasn’t been feeling well and has recently started eating less than he used to.  I’ll speak more about his health issues in another post.  While his eating less didn’t immediately cause me to do the same, I’m starting.  He’s helping a bit, by serving me smaller portions than he has in the past.  It hasn’t been easy, but that’s expected.

Before I go, I want to give you guys a huge “thank you.”   In my last post, I mentioned how I’ve allowed myself to stop enjoying life due to my embarrassment and shame over my body size.  I truly felt like I had received a big hug from the warmth of your comments. Thank you, thank you and thank you. I hear you all.  I really do.  I will try to put myself out there (which is basically just going outside the home) and do more this year.  It will be difficult, but I will start.  I hope that by the end of 2014, I am living a different life and actually participating more.

I couldn’t sleep last night, so I took a vacation day.  I need to find some lunch and maybe think about a nap.  Until next time…Go Hawks!

16 comments:

  1. Hi Roly, This post reminds me of when I weighed a lot and felt very overwhelmed. I used to cry several times per week about it. How I turned this despair around was to worry only about the next *1 pound* to lose and the next *hour* of choices I needed to make. Nothing bigger. Just the next tiny step in the right direction. Maybe that would work for you.

    You will have to get out of your comfort zone. But you're not alone at that. I wrote about when I got out of my comfort zone to change my ways on my blog today. It was scary! But it's the only way. You seem to know that.

    Try to spend a considerable amount of time per day reading blogs of health bloggers who have succeeded at losing weight. Try to soak in their good habits and mindset, as if they are infomercials. Don't worry if you don't do the good ideas right away, just force yourself to read them. Read a lot of it. Go to blog archives if necessary. It will go in your brain and start turning your mind around. If you need ideas for different blogs for this, I could recommend some more blogs to you.

    As always, I want you to do so well. And for your husband too. :D

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  2. Time does fly by doesn't it! I can remember the last minute rush preparing for Christmas and now the Valentine Cards are in the shops.

    Here's to your good food choices, losing a little weight and enjoying life. We are all on your side.

    All the best Jan

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  3. I am so glad you are not giving up. Just because time is passing, doesn't mean you have failed. You are preparing yourself mentally for the changes you need to make.

    Maybe you DO need a plan. Would tracking your food help? Would writing an action plan help? Tracking works for me, but I know everyone is different. I use the MyPlate section of the Livestrong website. You can plug in what you weigh, how much weight you'd like to lose per week, and it calculates how many calories you should shoot for. It's really easy to use (although I do it on a laptop or tablet, because the phone app sucks!)

    Please know that all of us that commented really wanted you to feel our HUGS! You deserve to feel better, and I want you to treat yourself well!

    Maybe small changes are what's called for first. Maybe pick one thing to focus on for the week. Small victories might increase your determination to tackle larger ones!

    I'm pulling for you!

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  4. I am hitting the reset button in 2014, too. I've lost four pounds so far, and I hit a wall today after dealing with some super stressful stuff at work. I wanted to come home and crawl into bed, but I didn't. I went for a walk instead. I can't give any life-changing advice, but I can tell you that I read your blog regularly even when I don't comment. You can do this, but you have to act instead of writing about acting. I'm not trying to be judgmental or insulting, because I have been there. I still struggle with the action part most days, but if you change just one little thing at a time, it may help. Baby steps, and get it done! We can both do this! :-)

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  5. Glad to see you back Roly. Believe me I know how you feel. What Marion suggested is great. Honestly that is what I have been doing. Just reading. Trying to get into that mindset again. I have faith I will get back there again and so will you.
    Many hugs

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  6. Good Luck! It is hard to start but once you get going it does get easier. There are bumps and potholes but you just keep trucking. I highly suggest dropping the sugars and carbs and stick to whole foods myself. :) You know what works before for you though.

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  7. Hugs to you! I'm so happy to read that you aren't giving up. Keep trying and trying and trying. You can do it and we're all exciting to cheer you on. =)

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  8. I didn't have a specific plan when I started, either, and it worked out for the better, I think that for some of us, big plans are sometimes overwhelming. When one little piece doesn't work so well, we chalk the whole plan up to failure. With smaller changes and plans, when one thing doesn't work, it's easier to adjust and/or move on to another change. My money's on YOU!

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  9. I'm glad you're settling things for yourself here, and I sincerely hope you are feeling better about things. Hey, I'm doing a 5K (walk or run) challenge for 2014, through the year. It's free, wanna join us? :) Just to give you a walking goal?

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  10. Glad to see an update from ya... I've suffered a setback of my own when I developed a nasty MRSA abscess on my R shin 2 wks ago! (don't look at my blog if you're squeamish ;-) Haven't been able to hit the gym or go to yoga studio, so yes of course I've gained weight! I can do about 15 min of home yoga routine before leg starts to throb & I must sit down & elevate it again...

    Hang in there, baby steps!

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  11. kinda sounds like me ... every day... hahahaha but I usually fall back on my phone app Lose it, but I am always trying different things. Good luck and hang in there

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  12. You and I had very similar years I'm afraid, and I'm having to start all over as well. This is our year Roly, we are going to do it this time.

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  13. Just wanted to say how great it is to see you back! I really enjoy
    Reading your blog and have been checking daily to see if you had returned.
    Glad to see you have - good luck to you on your journey... you can do this!!

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  14. So, the first month of 2014 is over and the second one has begun.
    What have you done to change your status quo?

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  15. Just checking in to see how you are doing! Hugs!

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  16. Just hopped over to your blog to say - hope all is going well.

    All the best Jan

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