Wasting time
Except for the Seahawks winning the Super Bowl (Hooray!),
life has been status quo. In other
words, I’m still fat and haven’t done anything about it. I haven’t done anything about it that matters
or has made a difference. I think about
my weight and health every day, practically all day. Unable or unwilling to do anything about it,
I watch another day go by. Thinking
without action is about the sum of it.
New High
Recently, I set a new personal high weight at 396 lbs. After having weighed in the high 380’s for
some time, I had become somewhat accustomed to carrying around the weight. It never ceases to amaze me how adding just
five to ten more pounds can seem crippling.
Standing hurts. Walking more than
thirty to fifty feet at a time really hurts.
Forget the gasping for air, my back screams for me to sit or lean
against something immediately or suffer the consequence of dropping to the
ground if I take one more step. This new
high is really a new low.
Diabetes Specialist
My primary physician referred me to an Endocrinologist aka
Diabetes Specialist. When I heard the
news I was skeptical, but went along with it.
My appointment was last week. Basically, I told him I knew what to do,
but it’s the “doing it” that is the hard part.
He was nice, understanding, but firm.
We both agreed that if I ate better, my blood sugars would be
lower. We also agreed that if I cooked
or ate at home, it would be better that eating out or living off of take-out. This goes along with what I said about knowing what to do, just not doing it. He took me off of a couple of medications
(Actos and Glyburide), left me on others and prescribed fast acting
insulin. I had previously been instructed
to take the slow acting insulin (Lantus) at night and keep increasing the
dosage by 2 units every three days if my morning blood sugar readings were not lower
than 120. I was up to 44 units (should
have been higher, but I didn’t always raise it on time). He told me to only take 35 units at night
from now on. In addition, I am to take 8
units of the fast acting insulin before each meal whenever I dine out. If I eat at home, I am not to take any
insulin. This assumes that if I cook, my meals are lower in fat and carbs than
if I were to eat McDonalds. We’ll know after a couple of weeks of readings, if
this is the case. I am still waiting for
the mail order pharmacy to send the new insulin, so I haven’t started following
these instructions yet. The doctor
understood that it was not realistic that I would walk out of his office and
immediately start cooking and eating at home for all meals. I want to; I wish I would, but ….. Anyhow, he asked me (actually wrote in the
patient instructions) to just start with my lunches. He wants me to make my own lunch most days of
the week and then we can work on dinners.
I am supposed to send him my readings after a couple of weeks and he’ll
adjust the prescriptions and/or instructions if necessary and then a follow-up appointment
in three months.
Colonoscopy
No, I am not having colonoscopy, my husband is. He goes in this Wednesday, and has started doing a two
day prep. This means that starting this
morning, he is only allowed to have liquids.
He had a colonoscopy last month.
They found a couple of benign polyps but determined a better prep was needed
in order for a better view (last time, he was only off foods for one day). For close to a year now (after he returned
from India), he has been having some intestinal problems of which the cause is
yet to be determined. I won’t describe
the symptoms of which there are a few. I
will say that he has been very uncomfortable for quite some time. The colonoscopy is more to rule out things
rather than find the cause. Not sure
what the next steps will be, but hopefully something can be done soon. While he is basically fasting for the next
two and half days, I need to fend for myself.
Another Attempt
I hate to say I am making a new start, because when am I not
trying to start or make a change that will hopefully snowball to where I am
eating and living a healthier lifestyle day by day? However, I have hopes that this week will be
different than last week or the week before that. This week, I have a rough meal plan put
together for this week. I have the meal plan;
the food is in the house, now I have to follow through. I suck at the follow-through. I really do.
That being said, I am somewhat optimistic.
Have a great week.
Talk with you soon.