Not eating out until my husband returned from his trip seemed like a reasonable goal. I had less than a full week left when I stated the goal. As much as I hate to admit it here, I need to. I picked up fast food last night. I ended up working three hours overtime and did not feel like cooking. My plan tonight was to have the fish that I didn’t cook last night. Yet again I worked a long day and was feeling sluggish so I picked up something quick. Working longer days isn’t a good excuse to veer off track, but that’s what I did. While I am disappointed in myself, I am not going to beat myself up about it. It happened and now I need to keep going and keep trying to change my ways.
My husband landed at SEATAC airport a short while ago and should be in a shuttle van on his way home. He has been enjoying cooler temperatures for the last couple of weeks and is coming home to the mid 80s. The combination of the heat and traveling for the last twenty-four hours means that his weekend will include a lot of rest. What I hope it doesn’t mean is that all of our meals will be prepared outside the house. It will take focus and commitment to stay on track this weekend. Right now I feel somewhat optimistic but know that it will be a huge challenge.
Even though I have been consuming smaller quantities of food while he has been away, I still have given in to sweets. My blood glucose readings are looking better too, but a huge part is due to insulin dosages. Still I am working to have better control by eating less sugar and carbs. There is much room for improvement. I do not feel like I can give up sugar entirely cold turkey, but I will work to reduce, reduce, reduce. I’ll need my husband and sister’s help with this. The less we bring in the house, the less tempted I will be. I know it is ultimately my responsibility and I accept that, but it would be nice if they could help. I am weak, oh so very weak. In the next couple of months, I hope to make big improvements in this area. Stay tuned.
I feel like I am rambling in this post, so I will end for now. I hope you all have a great weekend and spend time with people you enjoy and love.