The first half of 2014 has flown by and as per usual I have failed to lose any weight or improve my health in anyway. As things stand now, I am in the worse shape of my life health wise. Sunday morning I weighed in at 396.7 lbs, my highest ever. I haven’t given up and never will. Every day is a struggle and more days than not, I lose the battle. I want to change so badly and improve my health. Wanting, wishing and dreaming are fine but they don’t take the weight off. Eating less and moving more will. Somehow, someway I will do both and after the second half of 2014 I will be in somewhat better shape.
My husband is in New Zealand for two weeks so I must fend for myself. Since I never cook and he usually drops me off in front of the door to the office building, I am finding myself struggling without him. If I am not dead upon his return, hopefully I will be in the tiniest bit better condition and able to stand for longer than a minute without looking for a seat or something to lean against. Okay, it may take more than a couple of weeks to lessen the back pain, but the extra walking is sure to help.
My goal for this week is to survive. Secondly, I would like to eat food prepared by me at least 75% of the time. That sounds good, two goals nice and simple. There are many habits I need to work on and the sooner the better. Eating at home this week is a goal that I can accomplish. I’ll start there.