So far my week has not been the great recovery week that I had hoped for, but I am closer to being on track. Even with some food choice struggles as I fight myself to do the right thing and not always doing the right thing, I'm okay with that. I'm not stuffing my face and making wrong decision after wrong decision as I had done this past weekend. Still, I can do better. I need to do better.
When I think about my actions this last weekend, I am disappointed with myself. I reacted badly to seeing an unexpected weight gain. Most of my reaction was based on fear and instead of doing what would help the situation, I did the opposite. I know all this and I want to stop this behavior but I still worry whether I can or if I will. That being said, I don't want to dwell on it. I won't ignore it and I'll still be aware of it, but I want to move forward. Like many of you have pointed out, there will be bumps along the journey. This was a bump that I made bigger than it needed to be.
My plan is to keep trying each day to get back to a place I was a couple of weeks ago. I need to eat most meals at home, stop snacking or at least stop having sugary snacks, drink more water and move this big body more. Tonight will be the first time that I have cooked a meal since my husband returned home from his trip. He returned on August 9th, so that means that I reverted back to my old ways. Meaning, I haven't been cooking and either he cooks or we dine out. For change to happen, I need to make it happen. It will be a simple meal of roasted butternut squash, spinach and salmon, but I know my husband will appreciate it. The challenge will be cooking another meal soon. I've got to do it though. I need to share responsibility. The more help I can be, then the less we will eat out. That's what we need the most right now. Healthier meals cooked at home will provide us with more energy, a better feeling about ourselves and probably much more.
It feels like this post is a jumbled mess. Sorry, writing is not my strongest skill. The point to all this is that I'm not quite back on track, but I'm almost there. I'm moving forward. Before I go, I just want to thank you all for stopping by and for all the wonderful encouragement you have given me. For all of you that have traveled here from the help of Biz, thank you so much for your kind words and pieces of wisdom gained from your own experiences. I love this blogging community and send you all great big hugs!