Monday, March 16, 2015

When will I be ready to change?

It has been over two months since I last checked in here, and I apologize for being a lousy blogger.  A big hug and thank you to all those that reached out to let me know you care and are concerned.  With my weight hovering around the same spot for so long and then actually seeing the 400's on the scale at the end of February I didn't feel inspired to share anything.  While nothing has changed with the weight,  I do feel a bit motivated and ready to hunker down for a more serious attempt than I have shown in some time.

The Nurse Practitioner that manages my diabetes care suggested that I see a psychologist to maybe find out why I am not making the changes that are necessary to improve my health.  It had been suggested a couple of times before  but I thought it would be a waste of time.  Well, I went for a one hour session last week and spilled the beans about my entire life or as much as I could fit it.  After which she spoke some about making small sustainable steps and suggested a book to read.  She told me that she wasn't sure she could help me, but would like to try.  I walked away thinking that I hadn't learned anything new. Everything she told me about making changes, I already knew.  I know what to do, but just don't do it.  She called me later and told me that she reviewed the notes of our session as well as the notes from my Nurse Practitioner and told me that she thinks differently than she did at the end of the session.  She said that she believes I am still in the 'contemplating' stage of change.  That I am thinking about it but not quite ready to change.  Not sure what I think about that. I may go back for one more session and see if it helps any and whether I think future sessions would be of benefit.  Right now, I am doubtful but willing to try. 

My sister and I went to lunch on Saturday and spent some quality alone time.  We haven't done that but one or two times since my nephew was born almost six years ago.  She comes over twice a week for 'buddy' night so I still see her often but my husband makes it a trio.  We had a great time.  She is a lot like me including the weight problem.  Her son keeps her more active than I am so she is in somewhat better shape than me.  If she doesn't make some changes soon though, Diabetes is in her future.  Hopefully we can both start making changes and seeing some success.

This week I am going to concentrate on eating at home.  Same story/plan as always, but I will try.  My husband has started having some meals delivered for the middle of the week when he doesn't feel like cooking.  I've been down that road several times and it may work for awhile but then I quickly tire of them.  He is on his own this time, which means I am to fend for myself.  The first two weeks haven't went well, but I am optimistic that I will actually cook this week.  Eating at home and drinking more water will be my focus this week.

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