Sunday, January 10, 2016

Here I am...again

Another new year and I find myself in the same condition, fat, sore and tired.  

I am fat, obese, morbidly obese and just under 400 pounds on a five foot three inch frame.  

I am sore from inflammation and osteoarthritis in my knees.  Mainly my left knee has been in excruciating pain for the last couple of weeks.  

I am tired of 
    • being fat
    • being in pain
    • not sleeping because of the pain
    • being in the same condition year after year 
Yet, I am stuck.  

While I may be depressing, I am not depressed.

My ability to lose weight sometimes feels hopeless but I am still hopeful. Why I don’t know, but I am.

Hoping and wishing will get me no where.  Change is needed.  Action is needed.

A plan is needed.  Darn, I don’t have one of those…yet.  In the absence of a plan, I will focus on making changes from what I normally do.  The obvious…I will eat less.  I want to make healthier food choices too.  This is where and what I will start with.  For now, that is enough.  I will work on that.

Happy New Year.  I hope 2016 brings great things for you all.