Saturday, August 31, 2013

Down, but not out

In case this post’s title led you to believe I have lost weight, that is definitely not the case.  The opposite is true.  I have once again, fallen down and am struggling to get back on the wagon.  My eating has been almost a free-for-all, but I am hoping to stop the insanity soon and start turning things around.  I don’t have plan yet, but have a few ideas.  

In the meantime, I will start with just three goals for this week and focus on them.
  1. Drink more than 64 ounces of water each day
  2. Eat 1800 calories or less each day
  3. Walk at least 2500 steps each day

Honestly, even as I write these three goals out I wonder if I am being too ambitious.  Sadly, 2500 steps /day is higher than my daily average has been for all of August.  That number is closer to 1900/day.  However, if I don’t make goals or promises, I might get nowhere. 

No more hiding, I plan to post more often whether the news be good, bad or ridiculously embarrassing. 

Hope you’re all having a nice weekend.  I miss you and will be spending some of my time this weekend catching up on all of you.

Thursday, August 15, 2013

Are pigs flying?

There hasn’t been any movement on the scale yet (I’ve been checking), but my eating has been better this week.  It hasn’t been perfect, and that’s okay.  Except for last night, all my meals this week have been prepared at home.  

I even cooked dinner on Tuesday night and will again tonight.  I hope my husband doesn’t have a heart attack as I am sure that having me cook two nights in the same week is sure to be quite a shock.  It hasn’t been anything fancy; I’m keeping it simple right now.  Once I get back in the swing of cooking on a regular basis, which let’s face it may take some time, I may look to cook more adventurous recipes or at least with more variety. 

Since Monday, I have also been tracking my eats.  I’m hoping this effort helps me stick to my goal of 1500-1800 calories per day.  By the looks of things, not that I needed myfitnesspal to tell me this, I need to start cutting back on the sodium rich foods.  My swollen legs are also a good indicator of this.  Boy, are they swollen.

There is a lot of work to be done on my eating habits (understatement).  I am hoping this week will be the start to some of the changes I need to make.  Eating at home the next few nights would be a huge improvement over last week.

Today is going to be a busy, stressful work day.  Never mind that I will be crossing my fingers all day and hoping that I actually cook dinner as planned tonight instead of making some comment about eating out on the ride home from work today.  The commute home is a weak time for me. 

Hope you’re having a great week so far.  Hang in there, Friday is approaching.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Checking in - not much to say

Last week was not the comeback I had hoped for. 
This sums up my eating last week.

As a result of my poor choices, I gained 5 lbs and am back up to 383 lbs. 

I can and will do this.

This week, I will:

That is all I have to say for now, but I needed to come out of hiding.  I will be back sooner than later with better news.  Hope we all have a great week.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Weigh-in: August 4, 2013

It was no surprise when I stepped on the scale yesterday and saw a three pound gain.  My eating last week was bad, meaning too much of the wrong kinds of food.  The gain is the consequence of my actions.  Yep, I own it.

Previous Weight:  375 lbs
Current Weight:   378 lbs (+3 lbs, boo hoo)

The whining and complaining is out of my system and this is a new week.  The scale will move downward at my next weigh-in.  I am going to try hard to not eat out this week, especially fast food.  Starting today, I am tracking my calories.  My goal is to stick between 1500-1800 calories per day.  I will give this a try for a couple of weeks and then adjust if necessary.  I should start testing my blood glucose also.  I know it is high and I can guess the range, but I will start testing so I can have a record for my next doctor visit.

Yesterday, I did some errands/shopping.  To most folks, this is not a big deal.  Normally I stay home on the weekends.  Seriously, I usually don’t go anywhere unless it is to visit my sister and nephew or take a drive with my husband.  I used to get out and do more, but over the last year or so I don’t seem to go out.  There are a couple of reasons for this.  One is that with my weight being so high I’m not comfortable being in public.  The other is the pain associated with moving around, getting in and out of the car, walking around or walking around while carrying bags.  I know the less I do of these things will only help worsen my situation, making it even more difficult to get out and move around over time.  I’m embarrassed by how pathetic this sounds, but it’s my truth.  Anyhow, I went to three retail stores yesterday and was maybe out and about less than two hours.  The trip wasn’t too bad.  I didn’t notice my back hurting at any time.  However, my knees did hurt getting in and out of the car and are aching more than usual today.  All that said, I need to start doing more than just sitting around the house on the weekends. 

How was your weekend?  Any goals for this week?

Friday, August 2, 2013

Complaining doesn't help

My last post was full of sunshine and roses…NOT.  This week my eating has been off track far off track.  Today, with only two days left before weigh-in, I am still up 3 lbs for the week.  Those are the facts and as Biz has posted:

Thanks Biz!
Thanks for all the comments on my last post.  As many of you reminded me, this will be a long journey and there is sure to be ups and downs.  I’m still working on those three pounds, but this week is likely to end with an up/gain.  Biz is right and she served up exactly the attitude adjustment I needed.   Complaining and whining won’t get me anywhere and it definitely won’t help today or tomorrow.  From now on, I will make every effort not to do that.  I may fess up to a bad eating day or week, but I will own it and speak to how I plan to learn from the mistake and move on.

Despite whatever the scale says this coming Sunday, August is going to be a good month for me.  Why?  It’s going to be a good month, because I AM GOING TO MAKE IT A GOOD MONTH.  My plan for the rest of the month is to start tracking my calories and exercising.  I’m not sure what the right target is for me, but I will start with a range of 1500-1800 calories per day.  I am convinced that my metabolism is way slow from the diabetes, thyroid and sedentary lifestyle.  If I stick to this target and the weight is coming off too quickly (I wish) then I will adjust.  As far as exercise, I am not sure what form it will be in, but it will be movement.  I’ll start with a little and build up.  Starting is better than not starting.  This sounds like a good plan.  Whether it’s good or not, I don’t know, but it’s a plan people.

In other news, the hard drive on my work laptop crashed yesterday.  It actually started failing Tuesday afternoon.  I took Wednesday off and then had to deal with it yesterday.  My hard drive was replaced and I was able to recover most of my data.  We have an automatic backup daily, but if MS Outlook is open during the backup any personal folders may not be backed up.  I may have lost some emails, but that is yet to be determined.  The frustrating part, is reloading all the software.  I think I am about finished with most of the reloading/recovery, but time will tell.  I still have most of my hair left, so I think I’ll be alright.

It’s Friday, in case you may have forgotten.  Hope you have a nice evening and a super weekend!