October is just about half way through. How is time flying by so quickly? Holy cow!
Unfortunately, I am not off to a good start for this month. The bad news is that I have gained a couple
of pounds and am now only three pounds away from my highest weight ever. The good news is… well there isn’t any good
news…yet. I have been eating and feeling
like crap. I feel heavy and my back and knees
hurt. I’m not one to get depressed, but have been feeling down. The feelings are mostly around not losing
weight sooner and not taking care of my diabetes sooner. I have a lot of regrets due to my weight and
most of the time I am fine letting them go and moving forward. However, the longer I keep the weight on the
more I am losing out of life. I’m not
having a pity party here, just mentioning how I am doing. I know my weight represents the choices I
have and continue to make. I am the only
one that can change things here, and one of these days I will.
Speaking of Diabetes, I had blood work done on Friday and
received the results via automatic email.
My A1C was 9.8. That is the
highest it has ever been and does not surprise me at all. My doctor would prefer this number to be
<7 and is sure to contact me soon to start insulin. I have fought her on this for too long and
will stop resisting. I always thought I
would control my blood sugar levels by diet, but that never happened. I take a bunch of oral medications and now
insulin is probably my only option left.
Gosh, I have been stupid.
This post may sound negative and I didn’t really intend for
that or for it too sound whiny. I have
been absent and the above kind of speaks to my mood and why I might not have had
anything to post about. My husband and I
are determined to have a better week and will hopefully turn things
around. We have a menu plan for the week
and have prepped some of the food. If I actually
eat the food we have instead of eating out it will be a successful week.
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How is October working out for you? Here’s to turning things around and finishing
the month off strong!