October is just about half way through. How is time flying by so quickly? Holy cow! Unfortunately, I am not off to a good start for this month. The bad news is that I have gained a couple of pounds and am now only three pounds away from my highest weight ever. The good news is… well there isn’t any good news…yet. I have been eating and feeling like crap. I feel heavy and my back and knees hurt. I’m not one to get depressed, but have been feeling down. The feelings are mostly around not losing weight sooner and not taking care of my diabetes sooner. I have a lot of regrets due to my weight and most of the time I am fine letting them go and moving forward. However, the longer I keep the weight on the more I am losing out of life. I’m not having a pity party here, just mentioning how I am doing. I know my weight represents the choices I have and continue to make. I am the only one that can change things here, and one of these days I will.
Speaking of Diabetes, I had blood work done on Friday and received the results via automatic email. My A1C was 9.8. That is the highest it has ever been and does not surprise me at all. My doctor would prefer this number to be <7 and is sure to contact me soon to start insulin. I have fought her on this for too long and will stop resisting. I always thought I would control my blood sugar levels by diet, but that never happened. I take a bunch of oral medications and now insulin is probably my only option left. Gosh, I have been stupid.
This post may sound negative and I didn’t really intend for that or for it too sound whiny. I have been absent and the above kind of speaks to my mood and why I might not have had anything to post about. My husband and I are determined to have a better week and will hopefully turn things around. We have a menu plan for the week and have prepped some of the food. If I actually eat the food we have instead of eating out it will be a successful week.
How is October working out for you? Here’s to turning things around and finishing the month off strong!